I'm just working through my return from Africa when my body decides to take a dump on me, a windshield breaks, a rear car hatch breaks, a cochlear implant breaks, a child has more medical procedures, an air conditioning unit breaks, a job opportunity goes sour, family hurts. I feel like Sisyphus. This is my life, like a skipping record (for those of you too young to remember records, I apologize, but feel strangely sorry for you too!).
I'm not questioning trials (maybe I'm just not rejoicing in them enough?) but come on - doesn't there seriously have to be a break sometime? Truly God has a point here, but after 12 years, it would seem He would have made it by now! I want to scream at Him to show me what I'm missing in all this - I must be an Israelite in modern skin because I just don't get it! I'm fairly certain the feeling of frustration is mutual between God & I.
Hey Tanya! Know that I am praying for you. I really can't say that I understand all that you're going because I am not in your shoes, but I have experienced trials in my life as well. It is not easy to see what God is trying to teach us at the time - it becomes more clear when we are on the other side. It's like a tapestry - where we only see the ugly back, but God sees the front. Know that God is good all the time even when we don't feel it! Also know that God is not the only one in the picture - satan is very real in this world as well.
ReplyDeleteI don't believe that God is frustrated. I believe that when his children are frustrated and hurting He is weeping for them and hates to see them go through fire. But He is there to hold your hand through it all!
I love you Tanya. God is doing something wonderful with your life! :)
Thanks Joy! I'm certainly not placing the blame for not seeing on anyone but me!!
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