Feel My Love

Make You Feel My Love by Adele (originally a Bob Dylan favorite of mine) is streaming right now on my on-line radio & it fits perfectly with my mood lately. I know the words were written to an unrequited love, but they seem to encompass much of what I need to translate to my kids right now, each for his or her own reason. I think it just might be tougher for moms to watch kids go through stuff than it is for the kids to actually go through it.

I just counted this morning that our family has gone through 14 surgeries in 11 years - not all life threatening caliber, but surgery of some sort, nonetheless. Todd - 1, Tanya - 2, Wyatt - 3, Piper - 6, Ryder - 2. Those are surgeries people, I can't even count hospitalizations and testings. Suffice to say, we've not gone a calendar year without a medical intervention of some sort. I thought 2010 might be the year, but currently, Wyatt has had a sonogram to identify a "mass on his parotid" that he will now have biopsied on Thursday a.m. to narrow down exactly what it is and what the course of action should be. I'm SO over this - the what if's, don't know's, let's try, further consideration needed's, sticking, x-raying, testing. I am mad. I am broke. I am tired. But I am in love with these 4 people and so I hang on and hang in.

Make You Feel My Love
When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven’t made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I’ve known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I’d go hungry, I’d go black and blue
I’d go crawling down the avenue
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rollin’ sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain’t seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn’t do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love